Please pray with us...

I have struggled with my weight my whole life and I AM DONE!!!! I finally rallied the courage to step on the scale today and just about lost my breakfast in disgust! I need to lose 100 pounds! Yea, you did read that right...100 pounds! I am so ANGRY at myself that if I could, I would kick myself in the head! I could give a list of excuses as to "why" my weight has gotten so out of control...stress, always being on the go, being at the hospital so much...but those ARE NOT the reasons why! This is MY FAULT, and I have to own this problem so that I can finally get it under control. I have put myself at a HUGE risk for diabetes, high blood pressure/cholesterol, stroke, heart attack and DEATH-all the while having a child that never asked to be born with a heart condition. I peach at Jason all the time about smoking because he is killing himself, but look what I am doing...I am killing myself! What the heck is wrong with me??? I am eating myself into a very young death! Why do I need to drown my sorrows and boredom and fears and frustrations in food? Because I am weak. Please don't misunderstand this blog...I am by no means, in a PITY PARTY mode...I am angry and determined and need to be honest with myself; and by telling all of you this I am also telling myself. I have got to change my life. I have got to start excercising more, eating better, drinking more water...I have to do this for my kids, my husband, myself, and God!

Jason and I have been doing the whole "life style change" all week and have been doing it with SUCCESS! It is so difficult, and so EXPENSIVE. We are changing what we eat, drink and do. I have not had any soda (diet coke) or tea since Sunday! I went grocery shopping and got fresh fruits and veggies to cook with and snack on. I know that with the help of God we can do this! We have to!

I am asking all of you, if you will just help us to stay focused and on track. If you see stuff on sale will you just let me know. Please help by encouraging us, and most importantly PLEASE PRAY FOR OUR SUCCESS!

Thanks for reading this...and helping us in anyway you can!

God works in crazy ways...

So last night, Jason's car broke down on his way home from work. He was stranded in Pickney until an old friend of his that lives out there came and rescued him. After a couple hours of tinkering around with it they had to leave it out there because it wouldn't hold any electrical charge. Well our friend Ken Smith came out and met us and went out to get the car and then followed us back to my Mom's house to look at it. Turns out that his alternator went out.

If you read yesterday's post you had read that we have struggles in our financial dept (who doesn't right now, right?) Anyway, with us trying to move we are trying so hard to get credit card debt paid off and get some savings built up. As most of you know, we passed A WHOLE LOT of tests this summer...many with flying colors. Satan has attacked us in our marriage, with our friends, with our child and we WON. We have stayed faithful to our God! Well, we had absolutely NO money to do this repair on his car at all, so we were going to have to use the credit card we JUST got paid off to fix it. We were very bummed and upset about it. Jasonwas really angry all morning and as the minutes passed I watched his anger get worse and worse and worse! He was MAD! Finally I looked at him and asked him what good all the anger was doing him...it was making him physically sick, that is what it was doing to him!

So before we left today to begin our excursion, I had him stop so I could check the mail because God works in crazy ways...somehow when we think we are at our witts end and finances are making us crazy, money just "shows up". Nothing...the mail hadn't ran yet. So we went and did our business and after we got all done we stopped at the bus stop to pick Hannah up and I told him I needed to check the mail. So we did! And low and behold...for some reason we got another SSI (disability check) check for Elijah this month. We normally only get one on the 1st of the month, but a few times have gotten them just randomly if they have underpaid us. Well I showed him the envelope an he said "are you kidding me,were yo expecting that?" I HAD NO IDEA...NO PLANS FOR ANOTHER CHECK! I opened it up and it will more than cover the work on the car! No needto use our credit card! WOW GOD! Can you believe it? God really takes care of us all of the time! He is always looking out for us! Jason was WOWED...he was blown away...all I could say to him was didn't I tell you??? God is tricky like that! He makes us worry for a sec and then shows us that he will provide as long as we lean on HIM and not our own understanding!

That is it, just had to share how awesome God is...off to e-group...later gator's!